sorry
I have had trouble getting the energy up to blog lately, you know the drill... Been busy with work, study and home life.
Tauranga was lovely so I guess I have my post break blues or something... I went down for a librarian workshop and enjoyed it thoroughly and the lovely time spent with my little family.
I don't know... Life is sweet. I have so much to be thankful for. Loving family and a job I like. I'm excitedly planning William's third birthday (not till June but it's fun to start thinking) the sun is shining outside (sometimes) but in the bath last night I sobbed and sobbed.
I sometimes get hit by waves of grief I can't explain. It was so incredibly hard to get myself up, dressed and make it into work. Now I'm here it's not so bad.
It might be about my self-image. I’m really HATING myself at the moment again. Trying but failing miserably with WW... most of the weight I'm gaining is from drinking. Sometimes I skip meals or have too little throughout the day that by the time I get home I'm dizzyingly starving and scoff down any old thing. I gotta start using the crock-pot more so when I come home hungry there is hot healthy wholesome food waiting for me.
I'm tired
I need a hug and I'm feeling so guilty for feeling down.
I’m angry with myself
Short tempered with most things too.
Will try harder.
I wrote a thing
1 year ago
3 comments:
Just remember you are loved!
By lots of us :-)
it's not your hormones is it? I usually go through a bad patch before my period's due and think wtf is wrong with me. I'm emotional, angry and craving chocolate and then the penny drops.
Fing hormones
Em you are beautiful - really.
I'm trying to do the weight thing too. I'm trying to follow the HFG magazine's guide. They have some good suggestions. But it's hard yakka and I HATE having to watch what goes in my mouth. And I hate exercising. The only type of exercise I like is walking and swimming. Have you tried water walking? It's quite fun. Plus you can take the boys if you want and make a family outing.
I get the hormonal shift thing too where I'm yelling at the kids, treating Rod like a worm... The other day I shut myself in the shower and had a good wail. And then plucked my eyebrows. It did help.
Like Hen says... you are loved as you are, not what you might be, should be or could be. *muah*
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